I have to admit kids, last night was probably one of the most amazing I've had in quite some time, not because of the craziness, just the conversation! After a long day in the office-aka playing with the favs! We did the Brown and Company, where stupid whore waitress took forever and year with drinks, but either way we had a great time. Rushed home for Mikey and Chad to come play, which was fabulous given I hadn't seem them in forever and a year...aka since the divorce. So we caught up played clue and drinks of course. Then after they rolled out a little after midnight my favorite people in Elon came over and we stayed up with drinks and convo till after 530 when they left, I have to admit I was sad to see them leave. That said, you know I'm pretty lucky, very lucky in fact, to have people in my life to bond with-drinks or no drinks.
I've been doing a lot of reflecting on the bull shit I've gotten myself into, and the people I "want" to be around and the thing is I need to stop trying to be what i'm not and accept who I am, a fun responsible person who yearns for fun. So that's my new plan.
Today was great I awoke to a cleaning spree, followed by a shopping day in GSO with the Jonathan topless and frigid of course, but ever more fabulous. Then followed that up with the moravian love feast, which was a disappointment by far, and home to take care of some business. Oye
I'm dying to go out and buy a new wii, I really want one, I want to play one I love it, and I wish I still had my wii buddy oh well. Give up move on to the next :) I just wish friendship would have remained on the plate, I don't understand why it can't I guess perhaps I didn't have the brains for it, but irregardless, I'll get over it. It just bites that I lost potential friends, I had so much fun with them all in CH while I was there. I think I'll try and see what I can do to sustain what I started. Without being pushy...thats the hard part. Oh TWELL.
That's that!
Tacos and Fruit Loops
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Life is Beautimus
So today has been pretty ultra fab with the exception of being at work, on an exciting note though I drove
http://www.autotrader.com/dealers/dda/detail.jsp?ct=u&car_id=253125814&dealer_id=1360109&car_year=2006&dealership_view_name=iveymotorcars&first_record=26&sort_type=make_modelASC&pager.offset=25&cardist=0
I go back on Monday to have my car appraised, but I think she'll do just fine. I need to come up with a name though, Aurora was just like an instant fit for my little bugaboo.
It was a funny story actually, one of my students found it for me and took me for an adventure on lunch to go see it! We're going to celebrate our find after work with drinks at Brown and Company-before I run home to host a little game night exciting right??? I am pretty excited about it.
So todays, been hit and miss, I think i'm getting sick again which sucks ass but I'll get over it.
So tonight will be interesting in that Michael and Chad are coming over-ex of Matty Moo. It'll be the first time since the divorce that I've seen him, I'm hoping it goes well, however, I'm a little concerned I'll say something to the effect of you shouldn't have been such a douche to him. But aside from that I think it'll be a lot of fun, I adored him before I hated him...that has to account for something.
I'm going to DC next weekend after my final to celebrate class being over, me doing the GMAT on the 22nd, and Bridget's departure to ASIA for three bloody months. I'm rather excited about it as well. Only to come back to a few doctors appointments, and a major cram session for my GMAT. Then it's GMAT, Charlotte, NYC. I can't believe how crazy this month's going to be. And to see the ball drop in time square is going to be much fun I'm sure.
Ok back to work I go,
Tootles
http://www.autotrader.com/dealers/dda/detail.jsp?ct=u&car_id=253125814&dealer_id=1360109&car_year=2006&dealership_view_name=iveymotorcars&first_record=26&sort_type=make_modelASC&pager.offset=25&cardist=0
I go back on Monday to have my car appraised, but I think she'll do just fine. I need to come up with a name though, Aurora was just like an instant fit for my little bugaboo.
It was a funny story actually, one of my students found it for me and took me for an adventure on lunch to go see it! We're going to celebrate our find after work with drinks at Brown and Company-before I run home to host a little game night exciting right??? I am pretty excited about it.
So todays, been hit and miss, I think i'm getting sick again which sucks ass but I'll get over it.
So tonight will be interesting in that Michael and Chad are coming over-ex of Matty Moo. It'll be the first time since the divorce that I've seen him, I'm hoping it goes well, however, I'm a little concerned I'll say something to the effect of you shouldn't have been such a douche to him. But aside from that I think it'll be a lot of fun, I adored him before I hated him...that has to account for something.
I'm going to DC next weekend after my final to celebrate class being over, me doing the GMAT on the 22nd, and Bridget's departure to ASIA for three bloody months. I'm rather excited about it as well. Only to come back to a few doctors appointments, and a major cram session for my GMAT. Then it's GMAT, Charlotte, NYC. I can't believe how crazy this month's going to be. And to see the ball drop in time square is going to be much fun I'm sure.
Ok back to work I go,
Tootles
Friday, December 5, 2008
Fish are food I mean friends not food
So here it is 345 and I'm awake, I did do that sleep thing for a couple hours tonight, but was awakened to my silly head again. I'm beginning to hate it really, and thought for a while it was getting better. I had almost learned how to make it through the night without waking to the tune of WOMP WOMP. Oh well.
Today was my wake up call, I thank him for a big portion of it. Truth be known that at this point, I need to re-evaluate what I'm doing. I need to stop trying to find him and instead find myself, find my school, find my job. I'm smart and always have been I just need to learn to trust that in due time I'll be in a place where I can move forth with my life in all areas. Until then I'm going to try my hardest to be content with fun and surrounded by fabulous friends that I am very thankful to have in my life. That said I contacted a number of those fabulous friends, and hope that we'll ve able to get together soon, even more so because come next Friday I have to put on the game face for real.
I can't believe GMAT is around the corner, I am so not ready, and I am terrified. But I guess I'll manage.
Well time to try falling asleep again for a few hours, aka watch reruns of SATC till I fall asleep again.
Today was my wake up call, I thank him for a big portion of it. Truth be known that at this point, I need to re-evaluate what I'm doing. I need to stop trying to find him and instead find myself, find my school, find my job. I'm smart and always have been I just need to learn to trust that in due time I'll be in a place where I can move forth with my life in all areas. Until then I'm going to try my hardest to be content with fun and surrounded by fabulous friends that I am very thankful to have in my life. That said I contacted a number of those fabulous friends, and hope that we'll ve able to get together soon, even more so because come next Friday I have to put on the game face for real.
I can't believe GMAT is around the corner, I am so not ready, and I am terrified. But I guess I'll manage.
Well time to try falling asleep again for a few hours, aka watch reruns of SATC till I fall asleep again.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Foolish...
So I went out on a limb last night and sorta spilled my guts, silly me thought it went well. But I should have known better. Why I continue to be so foolish I'll never know, and why I seem to like the unobtainable I'll never know, and why I let the unobtainable win me over only to spit me out I'll never know. What I do know though, is I need to go back to being cold, it was easier and less painful. And not painful in the heart broken sense but more like the self respect painful. I don't like being the butt of jokes-another notch on the post-another entry into the log book. I value relationships and take nothing for granted, but what have i started in the last several weeks but a multitude of the shelf paper relationships with people, where they could take me or leave me, and appear to only want me around when all else fails. Its been hard to swallow, here I thought I was genuinely fun to be around-guess not. I'm going to try my best not to let it get to me, I've had a lot of fun and will continue to do so, if nothing else it has all made me realize I'm still alive, something that for so long I didn't think was the case. Ok 8AM-I have to get sleep, I just needed to get it out...
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Oh mom...
Mom…
Where to begin, you know I thought I had put all of this behind me and that I’d no longer allow it to get to me, and I have to admit I think I’ve done a good job with it. Moving on that is. Or trying to. I love her, but I can’t allow her to do as she has all my life which is bring me down, bring me down to her level. To that level where you hate yourself because she hates herself so much. But guess what…its happened again, I feel helpless and trapped again. I want so badly to be there for her to step in, give it all up to go home and hold her hand. To be that strong support she’s going to need to get through this all. But is it a battle worth trying to fight? No, we’ve done this-time and time again, but with no end result that is worth mentioning.
I hope this times different, I’m going to keep my fingers crossed that it is, and I’ll add her to my list of prayers. Can’t hurt-or can it. I’ve thought about this, why is it she’s here-why has she survived all the crashes, the drug ods, the drinking binges, the boy friends, gun fights, poverty, health. WHY? You’d think she was Ghandi or something for all she’s been able to make it through. I cringe at the thought of dealing with a lot of it. I feel bad when I have to put a tank of gas on a credit card, couldn’t imagine what it’d be like putting a house payment and all my groceries there too. That has to take it’s toll on you after a while.
What’s scarier, is I’m hers. I am a by product of her, she brought me up. Who’s to say I’m not turning into her? It’s a thought that terrorizes me on a regular basis. I try my hardest, but then again what am I doing right now…fighting the bit that keeps me in line. I bitch about being the put together one, I want to be the goes out and has fun one…or do I? I miss everything being in line. Having someone to come home and make dinner for every night, someone to snuggle up to on the couch to talk about my day with, or watch a new movie, or even those silly reruns of CSI that I hated with a passion. But it seems I either want it all or want nothing. I have that regiment now but with a cat, give me a break. This past weekend was a teaser. I got used to having someone to sleep with again, and it’s a feeling that has left me again feeling home wrecked, and my only solution is to find another. I just want that comfort, that safety net. I haven’t slept like I did in years and yearn for it.
I guess what this all adds up to is I feel I’m going to have to be more self critical than before. I can’t allow myself to fall to her level. As much as I want to be with someone, as much as I want to go out, as much as I want to be the life that keeps people burning-I have to tame that beast, and be me. Hope that instead of trying to please every or even some-one that I’ll need to please myself first and hope that someone finds that self to be the best and worthy of their time.
Ugh, again I feel like this blog has turned into mindless ramble-but I really don’t mean to seem like a downer, this is just what’s in my head, and getting it out here-well it’s been nice. It’s almost like telling someone but not…if that makes sense and all.
Stay tuned until next time when I spill it again for you….
Where to begin, you know I thought I had put all of this behind me and that I’d no longer allow it to get to me, and I have to admit I think I’ve done a good job with it. Moving on that is. Or trying to. I love her, but I can’t allow her to do as she has all my life which is bring me down, bring me down to her level. To that level where you hate yourself because she hates herself so much. But guess what…its happened again, I feel helpless and trapped again. I want so badly to be there for her to step in, give it all up to go home and hold her hand. To be that strong support she’s going to need to get through this all. But is it a battle worth trying to fight? No, we’ve done this-time and time again, but with no end result that is worth mentioning.
I hope this times different, I’m going to keep my fingers crossed that it is, and I’ll add her to my list of prayers. Can’t hurt-or can it. I’ve thought about this, why is it she’s here-why has she survived all the crashes, the drug ods, the drinking binges, the boy friends, gun fights, poverty, health. WHY? You’d think she was Ghandi or something for all she’s been able to make it through. I cringe at the thought of dealing with a lot of it. I feel bad when I have to put a tank of gas on a credit card, couldn’t imagine what it’d be like putting a house payment and all my groceries there too. That has to take it’s toll on you after a while.
What’s scarier, is I’m hers. I am a by product of her, she brought me up. Who’s to say I’m not turning into her? It’s a thought that terrorizes me on a regular basis. I try my hardest, but then again what am I doing right now…fighting the bit that keeps me in line. I bitch about being the put together one, I want to be the goes out and has fun one…or do I? I miss everything being in line. Having someone to come home and make dinner for every night, someone to snuggle up to on the couch to talk about my day with, or watch a new movie, or even those silly reruns of CSI that I hated with a passion. But it seems I either want it all or want nothing. I have that regiment now but with a cat, give me a break. This past weekend was a teaser. I got used to having someone to sleep with again, and it’s a feeling that has left me again feeling home wrecked, and my only solution is to find another. I just want that comfort, that safety net. I haven’t slept like I did in years and yearn for it.
I guess what this all adds up to is I feel I’m going to have to be more self critical than before. I can’t allow myself to fall to her level. As much as I want to be with someone, as much as I want to go out, as much as I want to be the life that keeps people burning-I have to tame that beast, and be me. Hope that instead of trying to please every or even some-one that I’ll need to please myself first and hope that someone finds that self to be the best and worthy of their time.
Ugh, again I feel like this blog has turned into mindless ramble-but I really don’t mean to seem like a downer, this is just what’s in my head, and getting it out here-well it’s been nice. It’s almost like telling someone but not…if that makes sense and all.
Stay tuned until next time when I spill it again for you….
I have a problem with this for real
Ads on tests add up for teacher
Tom Farber gives a lot of tests. He's a calculus teacher, after all.
So when administrators at Rancho Bernardo, his suburban San Diego high school, announced the district was cutting spending on supplies by nearly a third, Farber had a problem. At 3 cents a page, his tests would cost more than $500 a year. His copying budget: $316. But he wanted to give students enough practice for the big tests they'll face in the spring, such as the Advanced Placement exam.
"Tough times call for tough actions," he says. So he started selling ads on his test papers: $10 for a quiz, $20 for a chapter test, $30 for a semester final.
San Diego magazine and The San Diego Union-Tribune featured his plan just before Thanksgiving, and Farber came home from a few days out of town to 75 e-mail requests for ads. So far, he has collected $350. His semester final is sold out.
That worries Robert Weissman, managing director of Commercial Alert, a Washington-based non-profit that fights commercialization in school and elsewhere. If test-papers-as-billboards catches on, he says, schools in the grip of tough economic times could start relying on them to help the bottom line.
"The advertisers are paying for something, and it's access to kids," he says.
About two-thirds of Farber's ads are inspirational messages underwritten by parents. Others are ads for local businesses, such as two from a structural engineering firm and one from a dentist who urges students, "Brace Yourself for a Great Semester!"
Principal Paul Robinson says reaction has been "mixed," but he notes, "It's not like, 'This test is brought to you by McDonald's or Nike.' "
To Farber, 47, it's a logical solution: "We're expected to do more with less."
The National Education Association says teachers spend about $430 out of their pockets each year for school supplies. This semester, Christine Van Ruiten, a teacher at E.C. Reems, a charter school in East Oakland, has spent $2,000. She scours Craigslist for free supplies and posts requests to DonorsChoose.org, which matches teachers with donors.
Founded in 2000 by Charles Best, then a Bronx teacher, DonorsChoose has funded about 65,000 projects totaling $26 million. Best calls it "a more dignified, substantive alternative for teachers than selling candy door-to-door — and certainly than selling ad space on final exams. That's crazy."
I <3 Christmas
Holiday Lighting Ceremony set for Dec. 4
Celebrate an Elon tradition at a holiday event that fills the campus with 2,000 glowing luminaries. The Holiday Lighting Ceremony on Dec. 4 features hot chocolate and cider, with Christmas carols and the lighting of a Menorah leading up to the moment when thousands of lights will illuminate the heart of campus.
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The evening begins at 6:30 p.m. at Fonville Fountain.
Children of all ages can enjoy a ride on the Little Blue Choo, a tram that carries passengers around the main campus area, and in years past, Santa and Mrs. Claus have stopped by for younger guests to share their wish lists.
The public is invited to attend the campus celebration - a beautiful Elon tradition that you don't want to miss.
So goooing!
Monday, December 1, 2008
Pirates what?
Are you kidding me????
A bid by Somali pirates to hijack a luxury cruise ship was foiled by an international taskforce, officials said on Monday, as ransom negotiations for a Saudi super-tanker stretched into overtime.
A spokesman for the Danish navy, the current lead nation in the NATO taskforce, confirmed the operation had stopped a group of pirates from boarding a civilian vessel which reports said was carrying some 400 passengers and 200 crew
This makes me giggle
STRENGTHS:
My face book votes say that I'm:
most generous
most loyal
best father (potential)
WEAKNESSES:
most artistic
person with the best profile picture
Seriously though...
My face book votes say that I'm:
most generous
most loyal
best father (potential)
WEAKNESSES:
most artistic
person with the best profile picture
Seriously though...
Womp Womp
So it's Monday, the official last day of my break and what have I done??? After awaking to the beat of my cell jingling-I made a pot of Gevalia and grabbed a yogurt, typical morning in my house. As I was walking back to my room, however, the eyes caught a glimpse of my fun painting I did with Gail so I instantly decided I should shoot her an email since I hadn't seen or spoken to her in ages.
Fabulous idea because she phoned nearly immediately and 45 minutes later I had laughed so hard my ribs were hurting me. God I love her! She's had a rough month, and we decided a play date this week is a must! I couldn't be more excited.
Being bouncy led me into a britney dance fest where I found myself dying to go play with Aurora, so I did so! Too much fun, I just wish I had someone to be silly with. Damn Mondays...Afterwards, I went to work, dry cleaners, ON, Ross, Target, Gas Station, DT, and KMart. Phewies-now I'm back home-trying to muster the focus needed to do accounting...trying being the key word.
Had a fun exchange of textys with Matty Moo and it looks like we're finally going to get around to Four Seasons-which we've had flixed for ages now! Given I love our movie nights because they generally have Little Ceasars I'm even more excited!!
I'm looking forward to this week a lot of fun stuff, and I'm hoping to get to play with my new friend Mr. Foushee on Thursday, I am bound to have a fab time as I have every time we've played thus far. Who would have guessed I would actually meet someone worth developing a friendship with online???
Laundrys buzzing, and I should be working...until next time....TOOOOOTLES
Fabulous idea because she phoned nearly immediately and 45 minutes later I had laughed so hard my ribs were hurting me. God I love her! She's had a rough month, and we decided a play date this week is a must! I couldn't be more excited.
Being bouncy led me into a britney dance fest where I found myself dying to go play with Aurora, so I did so! Too much fun, I just wish I had someone to be silly with. Damn Mondays...Afterwards, I went to work, dry cleaners, ON, Ross, Target, Gas Station, DT, and KMart. Phewies-now I'm back home-trying to muster the focus needed to do accounting...trying being the key word.
Had a fun exchange of textys with Matty Moo and it looks like we're finally going to get around to Four Seasons-which we've had flixed for ages now! Given I love our movie nights because they generally have Little Ceasars I'm even more excited!!
I'm looking forward to this week a lot of fun stuff, and I'm hoping to get to play with my new friend Mr. Foushee on Thursday, I am bound to have a fab time as I have every time we've played thus far. Who would have guessed I would actually meet someone worth developing a friendship with online???
Laundrys buzzing, and I should be working...until next time....TOOOOOTLES
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